LOVE YOU IN DREAMS AND REALITY

I stay up late through the long night,
Hoping for a new dawn;
Since you left even the day has not seemed bright,
My whole world seems empty; its you where I belong;
It has been a fairy tale,
The Great Castle, the Lover’s Cave and the Enchanting Vale,
And then there was Isolde’s Knight,
I found myself in Isolde’s gown,
Waiting for my beloved’s sight;
Then I realized you are the knight for whom I long;
It has been a fairy tale of magic and love;
Unknowingly with real characters I wove;
And now that you are not here, I feel one thing true,
Don’t know when I lost myself in love with you.

Should Have waited ........ Now I repent For YOU...

I lost myself in the cave of jewels;
Their lifeless light covered my eyes;
Those eyes that could see none but you;
Those eyes that reflected your very image;
Don’t know the strength that lay concealed within those jewels;
The strength that smashed your image;
Leaving me in darkness;
May be it was all within my heart;
My fault; my weakness; my passion;
Your absence made me blind;
Made me trust in the fake light;
Pleasing, yet so vulnerable;
Now I know you ere there all along;
Hidden within the depth of darkness;
I have let my tears flow by;
I have let my heart cry in pain;
I dare not to ask you back;
I confess and I repent;
I prefer to stay in the dark cave for Eternity;
Till your light comes through those rocks;
Till my tears heal the wounds I gave;
I am happy to be punished;
Hoping you will realize me once again;
Like Jesus removing sin;
You will come back to me;

Am I Complete Without You?? !!

Forever shall I change,
Changing towards perfection -----
Drifting along with the flow;
Trying to fulfill the responsibility of giving motherly satisfaction to the lady ho shoed m the light of this world;
The virtues of sisterhood;
And that of a true friend;
And growing of a little tree…
Whose thorns…. When I press against my veins give the sense of touch of womb;
Trying to fulfill the responsibilities of the society;
I lose myself in the crowd of these responsibilities;
Yet in these sleepless nights,
When my heart wants to shed a tear;
Dumb beings…. Big and small lay scattered around me;
My tears flow away------- unnoticed;
Somewhere I feel your absence;
Sometimes sky needs to rain;
For only the sweet smell of water and mud
Can create the aura of love;
Sometimes things need to b expressed;
In the depth and darkness of night,
I can see beyond my strength;
Confusions puzzle my mind--------
Am I Complete Without You??

GATHERING THE SCATTERED STRINGS:-

The warmth of the 1st sunlight of the day touched my soul;
As I walked near the blooming rose bushes,
Covered with red buds,
And the little pink ones----- fully bloomed
Like little pink stars;
The morning breeze played with them,
Sun’s golden rays lit up the world,
The birds chirped here and there;
I stood alone at the little paradise of love
With my wounded heart----------
He broke the strings of that lyre
That once played songs for him;
That once felt it was born to be for him;
Yet he rejected those tunes, those strings;
He left it wounded-----------
With that I stood;
I was not afraid to lose anything,
For I have lost everything forever;
But the breeze pushed me towards the roses;
It played over my shoulders,
As the warm sunlight gave its healing touch;
At the corner I noticed the little clitoria----
She had twined round a single pole of bamboo.
Weak though she was,
She bore a blue blossom;
I ran to my green friends,
Touching the velvet soft petals around thorns;
I sensed the rhythm of the breeze, sunlight and the chirping birds;
The spark of my smile
On my pale face made the tune complete;
I found a new rhythm-------
As the dawn paved way to the brighter day,
I looked forward to the new strings
To get revealed,
To complete the whole tune;
I started looking forward to a new day----------

Play Of Silence

In silence I have loved you,
My eyes have looked at yours in silence that evening;
They did not blink----- no sound slipped away;
Like the dark evening sky whose depth remains in silence,
When the white jasmine blooms---- leaving her aroma only at the break of dan;
Such way --- bloomed my flower of love for you;
In silence--- a depth hard to reach;
In silence I breathe--- in silence I cry;
My love surrounds you like a silent tune;
A silence--- that can be broken only by the harmony you bring to it;
For years--- through eternity shall I love you;
In silence--- till you can hear the tune;

The Moon and Heart

Throughout the day she conceals herself behind the sunlight,
Starring at the brown land;
The waves break against the shore,
Sending her messages every moment;
Its only in the darkness she reveals her form;
The silver moon ---- trying to light up the land;
The waves roar, the waves rumble,
They come and retreat in vain;
Leaving traces of their white foam;
As the lonely moon stares at her beloved;
Transcending beyond time and space-----
She stares, and waits for her love
As the white beauties reflect her cries and words;
Such is my heart------------
Like the moon I wait for you,
As the waves break peace in my heart,
Every moment I spend in the cycle of hope and hopelessness;

BHALOBASHAR RONG

Surjer lal-shonali abha rongin korechhilo aakash k;

Baganer golap gachh gulor opor eshe porechhilo taar e ek kona;

Pathorer bench e boshechhilam aami tokhun sei boishakher godhuli logne;

Eko bingsho shotoker ei chonchol jiboner srot theke

Beriye eshe cheyechhilam somoy katate------ ekla;

Mon – majhir nojor porlo sei lal golaper opor pora surjer lal abha-------

Chokher shamne phute uthlo bhalobashar rong;

Koto mishti!! Koto shundor!!

Kintu dubonto surjer roktim abha,

Shudur eshani kon theke dheye asha ondhokar------

Kothao jeno seo rong k adro korlo biroho rosh e ;

Kono ek na paowa karo chintaye ajantei chokh e elo jol;

Vablam---“ shotyi e!! bhalobashar rong bote!!

Kachhe peye kauke harano;

Abaar dur theke bhalobeshe jaowa,

Abaar valobashar manush k kachhe na paowa----

Valobashar ei bibhinno rup er sathe jorito ek oprokashito bedona----

Thik sei mishti lal rong r sei biroho poribesh-----

Prokrito valobashar rong toh ekei bole!! Taai na??!!

Are You Still There With Me??

When have I seen u last
Can u remember?
Drowned in the depth of my memory,
I feel scared--------
Scared to get lost by swimming deep;
Will u please give me my answer?

In the day, I get courage to handle everything;
Was not it----- it was u----- who promised to stay by my side ;
Wherever u are..........
The reality drags me into busy days,
Leaving me no time to think,
My only hope and courage--------
That u are there with me;
Are not u?????????


But at night, when I close my books,
And switch off the light,
I feel scared; scared to face the dark;
For it seems to unveil the concealed dark truth------
Hidden by the bright sunlight of the day;
I stretch out my hand in the invisible air,
Remembering ur so promised words
I feel like running away,
But then again, the dark reality stops me;
I can't escape from it;
My only hope is ur promise
For a word once uttered, remains forever;
It is the power of word
On which I believe;
But the reality is too dark to ignore,
As I remain confused;
"Are U Still With Me'?????

TRUE LOVE

The pouring drops , the smell of wet earth
Woke me up that dawn;
I carried myself to the garden,
With my sleepy eyes still urging to dream;
The eyelids that refused to stay open,
Lost their willingness,
As I stood with awe
At the sight of the enchanting dawn;
The rain resumed the greenness all over;
Marine calmness prevailed over the land;
The golden rays shyly started revealing themselves;
As the rain stopped slowly;
Among the green leaves I saw the red rose;
Never had I seen such beauty in her before;
The red gorges that kindle burning passion in men,
The passion that rages the fire of love,
That strong passion that creates the thorn of lust;
It was that same red rose;
Yet as the incarnation of an angel,
The angel of true love;
Wet by the rain-drops,
A magical aura shielded the red rose;
The firy passion burnt out ,
Giving way to the soothing one of water;
The red rose glowed with love,
The love that heals all pains,
The love that brings hope like the scarlet rose,
After the rain;
Such is true love---- the red rose after the rain;
I fail to recall my eyelids--- whether open or close;
As I stood between dreams and reality;
Like the lonely rose between rain and sun;
Waiting for you-----
Waiting for you to recognise the truth;

THE STAR IN THE CORNER

Royechhi ami koto dur e,
Akasher gobhir nilimaaye,
Hoyto kono ek kone-----
Shohoshro taarar bhire kono din e paarbe na amaye khuje nite;
Tobu o jedin alokojjol aakash hobe ondhokar,
Tomar e poth ujjal korbo amar aloye;
Tobu o shamne eshe chenabo na nijeke;
Diye alo diye valobasha,
Jhore jaabo himer gobhire;
Tokhun keu e jaante paarbe na,
Amar oshtityo- onostityer kotha……

LONELY STAR

Boshechhilam ekla janalar dhare;
Nishtobdho nijhum rat;
Pranikuler kolahole mete otha kolkata tilottoma shranto,
Saradiner byastotar por shokole nidra roto;
Shudhu jegechhilam ami
R oi sudur akash e raat jaga ek tara;
Batasher komol sporsheo nidratur hoye pori ni;
Mone chhilo klanti r chokh e tomar chhobi;
Ekaki cheyechhilam oi tarar dike;
Duronto batash elo chul uriye dilo,
Khola jalnala diye ure elo ek mutho dhulo;
Tobu o tomar j chhobi chhilo e hridoye
Sei chhobi eki vabe roye gelo chokh e;
Raat jaga oi tara ti ekaki chhilo nil akasher book e;
Amaye bollo, “ ami achhi toh ei prithiber jonyo,
Prithibir jonyo e toh amar raat jaga;
Tumi ei shoshro manusher modhye ekaki jege keno??? “
Ami bollam, “ tomar prithibe noy mor prithibi;
Ami toh jege achhi amar sei prithiber e jonyo;
Se royechhe mor hridoye, se royechhe mor chokhe;
Se e amar prithibi jaare chaicchi dur theke;
Tumi toh paoni tomar prithibi;
Ami o paai ni amar;
Dur theke diye jabo ei khin alo,
Taai toh amra raat jaga tara!!”

You..............

In that star-studded evening,When you looked into my eyes,Don't know what magic had befallen upon me,For i feel myself losing in your eyes;The glare , the stare--- seem so known;Was that glare that evoked the first love within Eve's heart?Don't know the answer but it seems so familiar;The more I think of those stares,The more I lose myself in the depth of that unknown world;Yet in that darkness I know , exists somewhere-----A world which will be ours only;If only for once you give a promising hue to ur glance,For Eternity I shall be waiting for you;I lost myself in your eyes,I lost my soul in Your Love............

MY 1ST RAIN WITH YOU:-

Behind the grey clouds the sun smiled happily
As the curtain of water covered the earth;
Immersed in your love I led myself in the rain;
As the trees swung along with the breeze;
My curls played freely over my shoulders,
Throwing my arms wide open,
I sent my message through the birds that flew;
My 1st rain…….. I wanted to feel with you;
Magical moments passed by;
As I danced in your arms in the rain;
I felt your presence in my every step;
My heart felt your love;
Your presence slowly cooled, the burning desire in me to be with you;
Just like the rin that cooled down the earth;
Those moments…….. I could see none but you;
You and me… amd our 1st rain;
A moment to be cherished forever;
Happiness….. So deep yet for such a short time;
All gone as I opened my eyes;
Only it was me alone-------
The magical rain rain reflected your image in my eyes;
The abstract presence the whole time;
Yet it was my 1st rain with you;
It would have been the same the either ways;
You are always in my heart;
You will be forever;