Should Have waited ........ Now I repent For YOU...

I lost myself in the cave of jewels;
Their lifeless light covered my eyes;
Those eyes that could see none but you;
Those eyes that reflected your very image;
Don’t know the strength that lay concealed within those jewels;
The strength that smashed your image;
Leaving me in darkness;
May be it was all within my heart;
My fault; my weakness; my passion;
Your absence made me blind;
Made me trust in the fake light;
Pleasing, yet so vulnerable;
Now I know you ere there all along;
Hidden within the depth of darkness;
I have let my tears flow by;
I have let my heart cry in pain;
I dare not to ask you back;
I confess and I repent;
I prefer to stay in the dark cave for Eternity;
Till your light comes through those rocks;
Till my tears heal the wounds I gave;
I am happy to be punished;
Hoping you will realize me once again;
Like Jesus removing sin;
You will come back to me;

Am I Complete Without You?? !!

Forever shall I change,
Changing towards perfection -----
Drifting along with the flow;
Trying to fulfill the responsibility of giving motherly satisfaction to the lady ho shoed m the light of this world;
The virtues of sisterhood;
And that of a true friend;
And growing of a little tree…
Whose thorns…. When I press against my veins give the sense of touch of womb;
Trying to fulfill the responsibilities of the society;
I lose myself in the crowd of these responsibilities;
Yet in these sleepless nights,
When my heart wants to shed a tear;
Dumb beings…. Big and small lay scattered around me;
My tears flow away------- unnoticed;
Somewhere I feel your absence;
Sometimes sky needs to rain;
For only the sweet smell of water and mud
Can create the aura of love;
Sometimes things need to b expressed;
In the depth and darkness of night,
I can see beyond my strength;
Confusions puzzle my mind--------
Am I Complete Without You??

GATHERING THE SCATTERED STRINGS:-

The warmth of the 1st sunlight of the day touched my soul;
As I walked near the blooming rose bushes,
Covered with red buds,
And the little pink ones----- fully bloomed
Like little pink stars;
The morning breeze played with them,
Sun’s golden rays lit up the world,
The birds chirped here and there;
I stood alone at the little paradise of love
With my wounded heart----------
He broke the strings of that lyre
That once played songs for him;
That once felt it was born to be for him;
Yet he rejected those tunes, those strings;
He left it wounded-----------
With that I stood;
I was not afraid to lose anything,
For I have lost everything forever;
But the breeze pushed me towards the roses;
It played over my shoulders,
As the warm sunlight gave its healing touch;
At the corner I noticed the little clitoria----
She had twined round a single pole of bamboo.
Weak though she was,
She bore a blue blossom;
I ran to my green friends,
Touching the velvet soft petals around thorns;
I sensed the rhythm of the breeze, sunlight and the chirping birds;
The spark of my smile
On my pale face made the tune complete;
I found a new rhythm-------
As the dawn paved way to the brighter day,
I looked forward to the new strings
To get revealed,
To complete the whole tune;
I started looking forward to a new day----------

The Moon and Heart

Throughout the day she conceals herself behind the sunlight,
Starring at the brown land;
The waves break against the shore,
Sending her messages every moment;
Its only in the darkness she reveals her form;
The silver moon ---- trying to light up the land;
The waves roar, the waves rumble,
They come and retreat in vain;
Leaving traces of their white foam;
As the lonely moon stares at her beloved;
Transcending beyond time and space-----
She stares, and waits for her love
As the white beauties reflect her cries and words;
Such is my heart------------
Like the moon I wait for you,
As the waves break peace in my heart,
Every moment I spend in the cycle of hope and hopelessness;

Are You Still There With Me??

When have I seen u last
Can u remember?
Drowned in the depth of my memory,
I feel scared--------
Scared to get lost by swimming deep;
Will u please give me my answer?

In the day, I get courage to handle everything;
Was not it----- it was u----- who promised to stay by my side ;
Wherever u are..........
The reality drags me into busy days,
Leaving me no time to think,
My only hope and courage--------
That u are there with me;
Are not u?????????


But at night, when I close my books,
And switch off the light,
I feel scared; scared to face the dark;
For it seems to unveil the concealed dark truth------
Hidden by the bright sunlight of the day;
I stretch out my hand in the invisible air,
Remembering ur so promised words
I feel like running away,
But then again, the dark reality stops me;
I can't escape from it;
My only hope is ur promise
For a word once uttered, remains forever;
It is the power of word
On which I believe;
But the reality is too dark to ignore,
As I remain confused;
"Are U Still With Me'?????

MY 1ST RAIN WITH YOU:-

Behind the grey clouds the sun smiled happily
As the curtain of water covered the earth;
Immersed in your love I led myself in the rain;
As the trees swung along with the breeze;
My curls played freely over my shoulders,
Throwing my arms wide open,
I sent my message through the birds that flew;
My 1st rain…….. I wanted to feel with you;
Magical moments passed by;
As I danced in your arms in the rain;
I felt your presence in my every step;
My heart felt your love;
Your presence slowly cooled, the burning desire in me to be with you;
Just like the rin that cooled down the earth;
Those moments…….. I could see none but you;
You and me… amd our 1st rain;
A moment to be cherished forever;
Happiness….. So deep yet for such a short time;
All gone as I opened my eyes;
Only it was me alone-------
The magical rain rain reflected your image in my eyes;
The abstract presence the whole time;
Yet it was my 1st rain with you;
It would have been the same the either ways;
You are always in my heart;
You will be forever;