Should Have waited ........ Now I repent For YOU...

I lost myself in the cave of jewels;
Their lifeless light covered my eyes;
Those eyes that could see none but you;
Those eyes that reflected your very image;
Don’t know the strength that lay concealed within those jewels;
The strength that smashed your image;
Leaving me in darkness;
May be it was all within my heart;
My fault; my weakness; my passion;
Your absence made me blind;
Made me trust in the fake light;
Pleasing, yet so vulnerable;
Now I know you ere there all along;
Hidden within the depth of darkness;
I have let my tears flow by;
I have let my heart cry in pain;
I dare not to ask you back;
I confess and I repent;
I prefer to stay in the dark cave for Eternity;
Till your light comes through those rocks;
Till my tears heal the wounds I gave;
I am happy to be punished;
Hoping you will realize me once again;
Like Jesus removing sin;
You will come back to me;

Am I Complete Without You?? !!

Forever shall I change,
Changing towards perfection -----
Drifting along with the flow;
Trying to fulfill the responsibility of giving motherly satisfaction to the lady ho shoed m the light of this world;
The virtues of sisterhood;
And that of a true friend;
And growing of a little tree…
Whose thorns…. When I press against my veins give the sense of touch of womb;
Trying to fulfill the responsibilities of the society;
I lose myself in the crowd of these responsibilities;
Yet in these sleepless nights,
When my heart wants to shed a tear;
Dumb beings…. Big and small lay scattered around me;
My tears flow away------- unnoticed;
Somewhere I feel your absence;
Sometimes sky needs to rain;
For only the sweet smell of water and mud
Can create the aura of love;
Sometimes things need to b expressed;
In the depth and darkness of night,
I can see beyond my strength;
Confusions puzzle my mind--------
Am I Complete Without You??